ANOTHER LONELY WEEKEND

When i heard the word "weekend" all of a sudden my head started to spinning around. I turned to hate this phase. Infact, I cursed weekend for giving me nothing but trouble and never ending dilemma. How I wished I could spend some quality time with my family without have to confront with others. I'm so sick and tired with all of these sh*t.

I imagined myself playing around with my son. Laughing together with my hubby. Reading books while watching my prince were sleeping so peacefully. I saw heaven on his eyes. How i missed him so bad that I could cry...God, please tell me what to do...this is really torturing me :-((

I knew i had created a dysfunctional family by not taking my son with me when i moved out from my parents' house. I was too scared and too dumb to decide. I was confused. Even until now i'm still confuse :-(

There were times when I felt so hopeless that I did nothing but complained. I did nothing but creating conflict with my hubby. I did nothing but some passive-aggressive-destructive movement. How fool I was...

I miss him....a lot :-(








At the office (3/19/2011)

-poor me-